Josh just came in from outside with Lilly, and found me crying silently at my computer. I had been reading the latest post by the Yarn Harlot. Again. I cried over it yesterday too. One of her daughters got married yesterday, and she was remembering how it was before everything was going to change that day.
Josh says I am sooo pregnant and smiles.
I'm sad and depressed today. He let me sleep in until 11:00. My coffee is making me feel better.
I miss the days before aps and smart phones and intrusive ads and constant data tracking. AVG has a pop up everyday asking me to buy their product instead of just use the free one. Bill Gates REALLY REALLY wants me to get Microsoft 10. As if. There is no minesweeper. You have to play your games online so that you can get ads with them, just like on my phone. No thank you. I don't need ads with my solitaire. Imagine all of the extra data tracking in it! I'm starting to sound like a crazy conspiracy theorist. I suppose I want to be paid for my data...and maybe, you say, I am b/c Mircrosoft 10 is free. But it's not, there's the darn ads and pop ups. I still pay for it with brain space being warped by the ads. I'm thinking of learning linux and going in deep to block ads and unwanted notifications. Someday, you know, when I have time.
I don't know what else. I spend more time undoing stitches than making stitches in the dress I'm knitting lilly. The more I assertively express myself, the angrier people I wish would support me, get. The books said that would happen.
I'm taking swimming aerobics at the gym, so I can exercise and be pregnant. I like doing that.
We aren't moving until the spring now b/c we have to save up money for closing costs. I don't want to live in town, but the only houses we can afford are in town. Maybe we'll move to newaygo, the houses are cheaper there. I have a feeling we would fit in better in Newaygo than in Fremont. I was once told that Newaygo schools have a drug problem, but I suppose I'd rather it be in the open and acknowledged, than hidden and shamed, like in Fremont. B/c just because no one knows there is a drug problem, doesn't mean there isn't one...and drugs are every where. Everywhere. I did not smoke pot in high school, but I did try to get alcohol. I could not get hte alcohol, but I have a feeling, I could have succeeded in getting the pot. This was before prescription drugs were what they are...or I was super naive on those.? Prescription drugs are what scare me most. I could go on and on on the lack of information, education and regulations of those.
Also, isn't it ironic (in the way that pisses me off) that the generation that created Say No To Drugs, are the most addicted to prescription drugs currently?
For Father's Day I got Josh a new shaving kit from Harry's. It's a german made online company that sells refill blades for 2$. The same men who started this company started a similar one that sells eye glasses for $99, any style, I dont' remember what that one is called. To find razor refill blades for my Gillette razor, I had to go to ebay to get the quantity I wanted for the price I wanted. I did not want to spend 18$ for 8 blades. So I got five for ten dollars. That should last me a year or so. :) I rarely shave. Also, it's cheaper for me to get the men colored ones than the women colored ones. Back to Harry's. Now when Josh needs new razors, I just place an order instead of going to Walmart. I hate walmart. I want to go right now b/c I want to buy stuff and I want to be in air conditioning. But I don't want to walk around and look at cheap crap made in another country reminding me that I can find higher quality for a similar price if I try harder. Walmart sucks out my soul and depresses me. Then I have to buy their southwestern chipotle salad in a wrap to make me feel better. It does.