Goal Check in:
1. Brushing and flossing are going well. Lilly went to the dentists for the first time, so now I've got her in that 6 month cycle.
2. I have tried but still need to work on my exersice and getting into the tamarac. It's frustrating b/c the times that are best to go are the weekends and they have funny childcare hours then that do not work for us. I suppose I have to change to get to the tamarac.
3. Eating vegetables is happening. I am having spinach at lunch and so is josh. I'm workign to get him a veggie in his lunch too as a snack. THis week has been hard, I was really tired, so not much is getting done that is helpful.
4. Taxes are done but need to be mailed out.
5. I'm still working on my planner, but it's slow going. I just got my daily pages to print out correctly. about 100 sheets later. I love my printer. It makes me get more exersize too b/c I have to go downstairs to get what I printed out.
6. Knitting is slow going, but I can't wait to start my next project. I want to do something big. But I think I will do some socks for Val first. THat's really important to me. Socks don't take a long time if they are simple.
I have been doing my taxes 10 min a day until they are done. It's frustrating b/c I just want to keep going, but I can't.
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
Monday, February 6, 2017
The Best Bits
Things.
Two or three days ago, Lilly found a candy cane she had left in the bathroom two or three days before that. She opened it by breaking it #not my child, and yesterday I found the broken off piece in Damian's daytime rocker bed.
Today, they both woke up at 6:30. It's like they are telepathic and plan it. I'm not going to complain though, Damian truly slept through the night.
Last night was my favorite Superbowl party ever of all time. We ate leftovers in front of the tv for dinner, then we all cuddled on the couch until the kids fell asleep. My team lost, but that's okay. It wasn't my team until yesterday when I was forced to choose one and I can't choose the Patriots. Obviously. Tom Brady and Mathew Stafford look the same when their helmets are on. I think my favorite part was when two guys got their helmets stuck together like teenagers with braces.
I was able to tell Josh about my favorite play (football play) and wish the Falcons would do it. He didn't know what I was talking about, so I showed him this video:
For the first time ever, I knew more about football than Josh. I can't remember how I know about this though.
My coffee is so warm and delicious this morning.
Today I want to work more on my planner pages, I want to help Lilly reorganize her room, I want to do her laundry, and I want to play with her. I don't know what yet. A game, art, or craft activity.
Mandy and Nick visited. They were anxious/nervous about how Lilly plays with Damian, because she is so big and he is so little. I used to be, but he finally grew up and got tougher than a newborn. They don't know babies so well. The next day Lilly played with her playdo and mixed ALL THE COLORS #notmychild. Let me tell you, that is the most anxiety raising thing she can do. Sometimes I have to leave the room and breath a little.
It's Monday.
Sometimes I wish Lilly was cuddly, but I think I'm glad she's not so much. I only want to cuddle when I want to, and I don't know how I would do with a child that wants to cuddle all the time. Right now, I bribe her with my phone. If she sits next to me and cuddles me, then she can play my phone. I sleep the best sleeps of my life when that happens.
Damian and Lilly are the most beautiful babies I've ever seen. I see other babies and they just don't compare at all. I just don't know the truth though. Are my babies that beautiful in real life, or am I biologically engineered to see my babies as that beautiful so that I love them and not reject them? And I'm not asking for compliments on their looks bc people tell my constantly, like at least everyone I see at Bill's, every time I go, how beautiful they are, and I still don't know. Maybe we are all engineered to think babies are beautiful, to keep the progeny safe. Also, sometimes I wish I could go grocery shopping without all the interruptions from strangers talking about my kids looks. If they must, say they are just so clever and smart and driven and tenacious and so on.
We were at a friend's house yesterday and they had a giant fat plastic Iron Man toy that the helmet flipped and there was space to hold a different doll, clearly, Tony Stark. But upon discussion, I found out that it holds not a Tony Stark doll, but another smaller Iron Man doll. I went with Iron-ception. We told Josh and Josh went with the Turducken of Super Hero's. I was so proud that he immediately saw the humor in the toy and made an appropriate joke, just like I did. I also tried my hardest to put Captain Barnacles in the large Iron Man, but he wouldn't fit.
That's Captain Barnacles.
I was watching a video of all his best bits and a creepy spider dropped down from the ceiling less than 5 feet away from me. It had long spindly legs and it was letting them fly! I stood up and couldn't find anything practical to destroy it with. Then it crawled back up to the popcorn ceiling. It was between me and the vacuum cleaner closet, but I braved and made it. But then once the vacuum was plugged in and ready to go, I couldn't find the spider. And I had been watching it the whole time! It was the stupid popcorn ceiling, it's great at disguising spiders. I finally found it and vacuumed it. It was an overall terrifying experience. Lilly was busy saying "Mom, I need someone to hold me" and I was all, "NO I need someone to hold ME!", and she didn't even know about the spider at that point. I try hard not to show fear of spiders in front of her. I don't want her to feel how I do about them. I think she could feel my fear though. Also, to my disappointment, she said she does not want the job of spider vacuumer someday. She did give me good hugs and we held each other.
Two or three days ago, Lilly found a candy cane she had left in the bathroom two or three days before that. She opened it by breaking it #not my child, and yesterday I found the broken off piece in Damian's daytime rocker bed.
Today, they both woke up at 6:30. It's like they are telepathic and plan it. I'm not going to complain though, Damian truly slept through the night.
Last night was my favorite Superbowl party ever of all time. We ate leftovers in front of the tv for dinner, then we all cuddled on the couch until the kids fell asleep. My team lost, but that's okay. It wasn't my team until yesterday when I was forced to choose one and I can't choose the Patriots. Obviously. Tom Brady and Mathew Stafford look the same when their helmets are on. I think my favorite part was when two guys got their helmets stuck together like teenagers with braces.
I was able to tell Josh about my favorite play (football play) and wish the Falcons would do it. He didn't know what I was talking about, so I showed him this video:
For the first time ever, I knew more about football than Josh. I can't remember how I know about this though.
My coffee is so warm and delicious this morning.
Today I want to work more on my planner pages, I want to help Lilly reorganize her room, I want to do her laundry, and I want to play with her. I don't know what yet. A game, art, or craft activity.
Mandy and Nick visited. They were anxious/nervous about how Lilly plays with Damian, because she is so big and he is so little. I used to be, but he finally grew up and got tougher than a newborn. They don't know babies so well. The next day Lilly played with her playdo and mixed ALL THE COLORS #notmychild. Let me tell you, that is the most anxiety raising thing she can do. Sometimes I have to leave the room and breath a little.
It's Monday.
Sometimes I wish Lilly was cuddly, but I think I'm glad she's not so much. I only want to cuddle when I want to, and I don't know how I would do with a child that wants to cuddle all the time. Right now, I bribe her with my phone. If she sits next to me and cuddles me, then she can play my phone. I sleep the best sleeps of my life when that happens.
Damian and Lilly are the most beautiful babies I've ever seen. I see other babies and they just don't compare at all. I just don't know the truth though. Are my babies that beautiful in real life, or am I biologically engineered to see my babies as that beautiful so that I love them and not reject them? And I'm not asking for compliments on their looks bc people tell my constantly, like at least everyone I see at Bill's, every time I go, how beautiful they are, and I still don't know. Maybe we are all engineered to think babies are beautiful, to keep the progeny safe. Also, sometimes I wish I could go grocery shopping without all the interruptions from strangers talking about my kids looks. If they must, say they are just so clever and smart and driven and tenacious and so on.
We were at a friend's house yesterday and they had a giant fat plastic Iron Man toy that the helmet flipped and there was space to hold a different doll, clearly, Tony Stark. But upon discussion, I found out that it holds not a Tony Stark doll, but another smaller Iron Man doll. I went with Iron-ception. We told Josh and Josh went with the Turducken of Super Hero's. I was so proud that he immediately saw the humor in the toy and made an appropriate joke, just like I did. I also tried my hardest to put Captain Barnacles in the large Iron Man, but he wouldn't fit.
I was watching a video of all his best bits and a creepy spider dropped down from the ceiling less than 5 feet away from me. It had long spindly legs and it was letting them fly! I stood up and couldn't find anything practical to destroy it with. Then it crawled back up to the popcorn ceiling. It was between me and the vacuum cleaner closet, but I braved and made it. But then once the vacuum was plugged in and ready to go, I couldn't find the spider. And I had been watching it the whole time! It was the stupid popcorn ceiling, it's great at disguising spiders. I finally found it and vacuumed it. It was an overall terrifying experience. Lilly was busy saying "Mom, I need someone to hold me" and I was all, "NO I need someone to hold ME!", and she didn't even know about the spider at that point. I try hard not to show fear of spiders in front of her. I don't want her to feel how I do about them. I think she could feel my fear though. Also, to my disappointment, she said she does not want the job of spider vacuumer someday. She did give me good hugs and we held each other.
Thursday, February 2, 2017
Goals Recap: Where Am I Now?
The point of writing goals, I'm thinking, is so that you can go back to them and remember them and in check in on them, and see where you are in the process of reaching them. I have been depressed lately and adding to it is the fact that I feel that nothing is getting done in my life/house. My goals are not even being met. I tried to write new ones and it was a failure. But then I was thinking, I already had a list! How am I doing on those.
But they are written in days past on a blog. Not the best place to put them. Heh. I need a place in my journal/planner to write them down in. Which, by the way, was a goal. I'm still working on it too. I have pages with important numbers on them printed and cut. I have pages with some of my passwords typed up too, printed and cut. My hole punch was not in my desk. It's in a tub in lilly's room full of crafting stuff. I think. So that was a barrier.
When I was in school and learning about goals for the first time, someone used the term road block. Starting then and continuing until now, I always picture road blocks as actual blocks in the road that I must climb over when I am walking towards my goal. I think they forgot to include the comfy beds that entice you to lay down and sleep on next to the goal road. Some are crappy cots, but some are some sweet ass glamping beds!
I made a spider idea chart for my planner. It was the first time one of these charts worked perfectly as it should. It helped me organize my thoughts and it was not confusing and did not leave me feeling like I did part of it wrong...or like i was using the wrong tool. Lilly saw it and it blew her mind. She then made me help her make one herself. It's about making cards.
Other goals, like brushing teeth twice a day for me and my family, got trapped in an ugly cot on the side of the road. Luckly, it wasn't too comfy, and i'm getting back up to continue the walk forward. Things that trip this up: Having to go somewhere in the morning by a certain time, not choosing the toothbrushing fight, forgetting, Josh being home and me not being as vigilant and assuming he'll remember. But, on the flip side, Josh had a dentist appointment and the hygienist noticed that he has been flossing more! So we have all been flossing more. That is a lifetime goal finally coming to fruition. Lilly even likes flossing.
Other goals: Veggies at every meal. I bought lettuce and cleaned it, but I have not had a salad yet with it. And it's been a few days. That's no good. I did add carrots to the tortilla-less tortilla soup I made, so lilly got some carrots and broth. Josh and I got a far greater variety of veggies. We got celery, onions, pablanos, tomatoes, corn and no carrots. Gotta save those for Lilly Bean. I did buy a thing of baby spinach and have been putting that on our sandwiches and in our foods. I don't know if we are getting a full serving each time, but some has got to be better than none.
You know what? We hit road blocks in the veggie road because we've been out and about a bit more this week. Well, first it was Josh's weekend to work three days in a row. That was really really hard. We had pizza on sunday night and i should have made broccoli to go with it, but I didn't. Maybe if I cut up the broccoli when I got home, like I do the lettuce, we would eat it more. Prep ahead of time. Then after the weekend, we went to muskegon to visit family. So that was a meal not at home. The veggie was a big salad, but Lilly did not eat that. I sure did and it was delicious! The next day was a veggie and bean dinner that Lilly did not like. Yes, I think prepping the broccoli in advance and the carrots will help with Lilly's veggie intake.
Oh, screen time was another goal. That is just okay. That is a slow change, but one none the less. It really is as easy and as hard as turning the tv off and keeping it off. And hiding my phone. It's just, the only time I can sit down and be alone is whne the tv or phone is on. The only solution is to increase my work time and decrease my own screen time. A rule I've been sticking too to decrease screen time is no tv after nap time until after Dah gets home. Though sometimes it goes on at 6:00 because I just can't function any more at that point. Having hte new media center to play music really really helps though. I do like having the sound around.
My knitting is going slowly, but I want to knit knit knit knit knit knit! I want to knit ALL THE THINGS! So I am working at night, about an hour, while we watch LONGMIRE. Say that in the deepest more drama filled voice you can. LONGMIIIIIIRE! Its a show about a sherriff in a small town in nowhere Whyoming near Montana. Next to an Indian Reservation. The sheriff solves murder mysteries. I think the first season was more dark and drama-y than the next seasons. There are 5 seasons. It's very good. Longmire, the sheriff, is like a cool cowboy version of H from CSI:Miami. Oh, I am knitting a lapblanket. It is only ten stitches and I attach it to the edge of the previous stitches and knit around and around in a spiral to make it bigger.
I should do the dishes now. A friend is visiting today to help me clean the basement! I need to find out her foot size. I want to knit her socks for her help. This is the third time she has done this. Handknit socks, I've decided are the gift to give people who have everything, or do not want anything. Everyone wears socks and handknit socks are even better than the $20 smartwool ones. I base the opinion off of my only pair of handknit socks I own vs my collection of $20 socks. They aren't even professional quality or that amazing, as they were my first. But they are warm and comfy in a way no other socks can be.
But they are written in days past on a blog. Not the best place to put them. Heh. I need a place in my journal/planner to write them down in. Which, by the way, was a goal. I'm still working on it too. I have pages with important numbers on them printed and cut. I have pages with some of my passwords typed up too, printed and cut. My hole punch was not in my desk. It's in a tub in lilly's room full of crafting stuff. I think. So that was a barrier.
When I was in school and learning about goals for the first time, someone used the term road block. Starting then and continuing until now, I always picture road blocks as actual blocks in the road that I must climb over when I am walking towards my goal. I think they forgot to include the comfy beds that entice you to lay down and sleep on next to the goal road. Some are crappy cots, but some are some sweet ass glamping beds!
I made a spider idea chart for my planner. It was the first time one of these charts worked perfectly as it should. It helped me organize my thoughts and it was not confusing and did not leave me feeling like I did part of it wrong...or like i was using the wrong tool. Lilly saw it and it blew her mind. She then made me help her make one herself. It's about making cards.
Other goals, like brushing teeth twice a day for me and my family, got trapped in an ugly cot on the side of the road. Luckly, it wasn't too comfy, and i'm getting back up to continue the walk forward. Things that trip this up: Having to go somewhere in the morning by a certain time, not choosing the toothbrushing fight, forgetting, Josh being home and me not being as vigilant and assuming he'll remember. But, on the flip side, Josh had a dentist appointment and the hygienist noticed that he has been flossing more! So we have all been flossing more. That is a lifetime goal finally coming to fruition. Lilly even likes flossing.
Other goals: Veggies at every meal. I bought lettuce and cleaned it, but I have not had a salad yet with it. And it's been a few days. That's no good. I did add carrots to the tortilla-less tortilla soup I made, so lilly got some carrots and broth. Josh and I got a far greater variety of veggies. We got celery, onions, pablanos, tomatoes, corn and no carrots. Gotta save those for Lilly Bean. I did buy a thing of baby spinach and have been putting that on our sandwiches and in our foods. I don't know if we are getting a full serving each time, but some has got to be better than none.
You know what? We hit road blocks in the veggie road because we've been out and about a bit more this week. Well, first it was Josh's weekend to work three days in a row. That was really really hard. We had pizza on sunday night and i should have made broccoli to go with it, but I didn't. Maybe if I cut up the broccoli when I got home, like I do the lettuce, we would eat it more. Prep ahead of time. Then after the weekend, we went to muskegon to visit family. So that was a meal not at home. The veggie was a big salad, but Lilly did not eat that. I sure did and it was delicious! The next day was a veggie and bean dinner that Lilly did not like. Yes, I think prepping the broccoli in advance and the carrots will help with Lilly's veggie intake.
Oh, screen time was another goal. That is just okay. That is a slow change, but one none the less. It really is as easy and as hard as turning the tv off and keeping it off. And hiding my phone. It's just, the only time I can sit down and be alone is whne the tv or phone is on. The only solution is to increase my work time and decrease my own screen time. A rule I've been sticking too to decrease screen time is no tv after nap time until after Dah gets home. Though sometimes it goes on at 6:00 because I just can't function any more at that point. Having hte new media center to play music really really helps though. I do like having the sound around.
My knitting is going slowly, but I want to knit knit knit knit knit knit! I want to knit ALL THE THINGS! So I am working at night, about an hour, while we watch LONGMIRE. Say that in the deepest more drama filled voice you can. LONGMIIIIIIRE! Its a show about a sherriff in a small town in nowhere Whyoming near Montana. Next to an Indian Reservation. The sheriff solves murder mysteries. I think the first season was more dark and drama-y than the next seasons. There are 5 seasons. It's very good. Longmire, the sheriff, is like a cool cowboy version of H from CSI:Miami. Oh, I am knitting a lapblanket. It is only ten stitches and I attach it to the edge of the previous stitches and knit around and around in a spiral to make it bigger.
I should do the dishes now. A friend is visiting today to help me clean the basement! I need to find out her foot size. I want to knit her socks for her help. This is the third time she has done this. Handknit socks, I've decided are the gift to give people who have everything, or do not want anything. Everyone wears socks and handknit socks are even better than the $20 smartwool ones. I base the opinion off of my only pair of handknit socks I own vs my collection of $20 socks. They aren't even professional quality or that amazing, as they were my first. But they are warm and comfy in a way no other socks can be.
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